A Diabetes Blog to Stay Connected with Us

I'm going to use this blog to keep family, friends, and the occasional visitor up to date on how we are doing managing Grace's new diabetes diagnosis.

Friday, April 27, 2012

Getting to know you. . . .

. . . .getting to know all about you. This is the way I feel about Grace's pump. So many of you have been so nice to check in and see how things are going.  I know a lot of you are curious to hear about our experience so far.  Sorry it's taken me so long to post an update. The truth is, life with the pump is crazy, unpredictable, awesome, and frustrating.

Here is the awesome: Grace loves her pump--completely, totally adores it.  All of our fears of her freaking out and not wanting to wear it have not come to fruition.  From day one, she clipped it on her pants and went on her way. We change her site every 2-3 days and that could be going smoother. She squirms and gets really anxious. Once it's over though, it's done.

Here is the frustrating: it's not like you just get hooked up to the pump, CHOP plugs in some numbers, and there you go. Enjoy! Our doctor sent me an email before we started pumping full of "you'll be frustrated" and "lots of sleepless nights" and "sometimes wishing you could go back to shots." I gave that a big ole whatever. We'll be fine! We're diabetes superheroes! We're so smart we'll figure this thing out in a day!  And, to a certain extent, I believed that to be true the first week.

And then Grace's sugar began dropping and dropping and dropping. And then her night time sugar began climbing, and climbing, and climbing. And then I realized what the doctor said was true. This thing requires a lot of work to get right. The wonderful thing about the pump is you can adjust Grace's insulin all day long.  Having an active morning, let's cut back on the insulin a bit. Having a waffles for breakfast, let's crank the insulin for a bit. Going high over night, let's see if we can get that back in range. But in order to get things just right, you fail. You almost kind of have to fail to realize where the pump settings need to be.  That means Grace will go low and Grace will go high as I attempt to find just the right dose to keep her where we want to be.  That means checking her sugar around the clock, getting constant updates from the school nurse, looking at numbers, and trying to identify trends. You make changes but you make them ever so slowly. I try not to get mad at myself when the numbers don't work out. I inhale, exhale, repeat. I'm tired. I haven't slept through the night in I don't know how long. It makes me irritable and, honestly, a real joy to be around. Ask Tom.

Sometimes things go wrong and they go wrong in a bad, bad way. Grace was in the 300s all night Wednesday. I figured we just needed to crank the insulin a bit more.  But when she woke up she was still in the high 300s and it was climbing. I had a major "oh shit" moment and realized her pump wasn't working. I pulled her site and saw the tube that delivers her insulin (canula) was bent at a 90 degree angle.  Essentially no insulin got into her all night long. I knew to test for ketones (the nasty acid that builds up in your body if you have no insulin). In the past, we've had experience with mild ketones. But as soon as I dipped the stick in Grace's pee it turned hot pink. Another oh shit moment. It's extremely easy for kids (and adults) on the pump to get ketones.  It's also extremely dangerous.  Too much ketones leads to bad bad things that I won't think about it. CHOP trains you for this in their classes so I knew what to do.  Unfortunately, it's a lot of sitting and waiting to see if things are working. Grace was tired, her stomach hurt (if she started to vomit we'd be on our way to CHOP), and headachy. We sat and watched a movie and I hoped for the best. By noon, she was fine and back to school. Again, I inhaled, exhaled, repeated.

To bring Grace's sugar back in range, I had to stop the pump and give her a syringe shot. Her reaction to the shot confirmed for me why the pump is right for us. She sobbed, was angry, and adement she would not go back to shots. I feel the same way.  I like what the pump has to offer us despite all the work we're putting into it. It's a challenge-like a giant puzzle with multiple moving pieces and those pieces change every day. I've never been a fan of puzzles but I'm working on this one, talking to CHOP, other T1 parents, and reading as much as I can. I'm confident we'll get this. In the meantime, patience has to be the name of the game.

1 comment:

  1. catching up on blogs - I've been so out of sorts these last couple weeks. Im certainly glad for the awesome and I totally get the frustrating. You are speaking the truth that it is maybe easier for pump uses to get ketones more so than MDIers since without basal ketones will appear after even shot while. The bent cannulas completely suck - I thought maybe you were going to say you forgot to remove the tiny blue plastic protector from the needle prior to insertion (I did that once).
    I would love to say that the frustrations will go away but I think really they just change. y'all will get the basals tweaked and things will be better - I love my kids on pumps and they love them too - things are easier - once you get past the learning. Cheers